At the end of the day, this is the goal. Being the best version of me that I can be. Give myself the best life that I can cultivate. That’s the real flex. Living your authentic best life and loving the life you created surrounded by the family you love. For everyone that looks completely different. Some people prefer the country life while others love the hustle and bustle of the city. There’s no blueprint. Like we are all the blueprint. Individually. Each written to a different specs. What works for some, may not work for others. That’s why I always had an issue with people being obsessed with “normal”. Seriously. Like I know I can be a weirdo but what the hell is “normal”. I think the concept of normalcy is weird. Think about it. Normal is never the same to anyone, anywhere. The human societies around the world are so multifaceted and different…so what the hell is normal??? Besides being a social construct that is variable depending on the where you are, with whom you are with or what you are doing… So much variety.
I’ve always stepped away from that. I never wanted to be apart that. Looking outside in, most of the people in that group whom the “average” person would assume is normal is 9/10 masking their real personalities. And who tf is the average person? See it is all subjective and not based in facts. People who mask themselves though having the facade of normalcy are actually using a trauma response and survival technique when they mask their authentic selves… Which I’m not judging at all. Like I said, we all want different things. I just do what feels good to me. Which perplexes others who had not thought to do things that make them happy themselves? I never thought people really lived like that but after moving around a lot I have met many unhappy people. People should be free to do the things that make them happy. Like as long as everyone is respecting everyone else’s boundaries and the environment, what is the issue? My actions don’t harm anyone as I take everyone else in account when I make decisions., looking both at the small and big picture of people that my actions could effect. That’s really all I can control in my own world where what’s normal for me, may be foreign to others. I feel like me striving to be the best me and expanding my world around me is what lights me up. I get excited thinking about the endless options that could unfold in front of me. I can’t tell you the meaning of life but all I know is I am living this whole experience up. I’m drinking from this cup of life and relishing every last drop. We don’t know what will happen tomorrow, next year, or even in the next 5 minutes. So whether I’m sitting on the couch, at some day party, or hanging out with my child, just know I’m fully going to immerse myself in that moment. That moment will never happen for me again because even if you could replicate the event, due to the smallest changes in the atmosphere, events leading up to and surrounding… it will never be the same. Love the moments when you in them. Strive for more better days. Enjoy and fully rest on your lazy days. Life is to be lived. Never take it for granted. Make it beautiful. Personalize it. Do the things that light you up. Find a way to ride the highs and the lows.
Am I competitive? Absolutely. I’m going to be the best version of myself and no one can compete in a category where I’m the only competitor. Every time I turn around I’m going to smile at the progress I’ve made and experiences I had. The end goal, you ask? Some journeys don’t require an ending. They just go from one point then the next. Then to another one. Whenever necessary. Im not in a rush. Im young. Im capable. Im determined. I’m disciplined. I’m just going to keep going where ever that takes me….
-C Money, the Muse
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