Learning to let go of what no longer serves me . . . That could also be the title but is also the title of this chapter in my life. So often we can get stuck going over and reliving the past traumas and events in our lives. On repeat. Some days this can cause us to be stagnant in the present because last time this happen . . . or what if this happens again . . . etc. So we must figure out a way where we can move past those things because as we all know, what has happened can’t be changed anyway soooooo….
It’s when you hit that moment when you stop caring like okay what if it does happen again. Positives are that you are well prepared to handle it and can do it again. Or this time you can change it and maybe something better will happen. But to live fearfully of failing or regret . . . nothing new will ever happen. Behaviors repeat in cycle and without knowing it, you’re living the same situation on repeat and hadn’t thought twice. But we have to think. We have to analyze. We have to be brave enough to face change and live in the present. We have to trust ourselves not to make the same mistakes twice. We have to embrace the positives that come with change.
For me, my life has always been change. Which I have grown to love in a way. I mean, of course it can be scary but it can also be exciting. Things can always get better. Change can be beneficial. Growing up an “army brat” I’m pretty much used to moving every 3 years. After 3 years, I feel trapped and I need to get away. Not just for the weekend. Every time is scary and every time I worry if I will make friends or will I find a job or a community . . . but I can’t live in fear or I will never feel like I’ve lived. I don’t want to be boxed in somewhere in some ruddy routine. For some, that may be all they need but for me there is just so much of this world out there I want to experience. I want to try new things. I want to meet new people. I want to learn new things. I want to get as much as I can out of this lifetime. We only have one so I don’t plan on wasting mine. I don’t want to get caught up on what 1 person out of the 7 billion people on the planet said or did to me long time ago because who tf are they?!?!? One droplet in the ocean. Don’t let one drop effect your waves.
I can feel the winds of change coming for me now. I don’t know what that means for me but I know I will face whatever it is head on and find the sunshine regardless of the outcomes. Great things happen for us all the time if we open up our eyes to see them. They might not be big like a promotion, new baby, new home, new car, etc… but I count every little blessing as a win. I.E., a good parking spot, a compliment, a good meal, a nice hug, a beautiful view. Those tend to add up if we pay attention and let that good energy build up to bigger blessings.
We cannot let the past dictate the present. What always was, may not always be. The only control you have is to be present and live in your moment every second you have because you never know when it your moment will be no more.
C Money London 