Emotions Are Also Like Assholes.

Emotions are like assholes in the fact that everyone has one. And unfortunately in life, they (as in the people), often seem to come and they go. I am about to be in week 6 of my “Artist Way” program which is a book (The Artist Way by Julia Cameron) that has been really helpful with getting my creative flow back going. I was thinking about emotions this morning and had some revelations I thought I should share. Maybe I may spark something for someone else, somewhere else. Okay so here we go back to the emotions. One, what I enjoy about the book and its process is that it is helping me to unload that which I didn’t even realize I was carrying. When you carry around emotions from past events or traumas or others peoples baggage it gets stored in the body! It can manifest as the pains and the dis-ease that you feel, so often root causes of a lot of illness can be derived from not dealing with/suppressing/compounding emotions. Emotions aren’t necessarily good or bad because if you think about it, you can be “mad” which is in association with a negative emotion but doesn’t have to necessarily be a negative thing. Justified anger. Circumstance and context help to define that because like anger, being happy doesn’t always associate with positivity such as laughing at someone else’s pain. So what is an emotion? Is it how you feel? Well what does that mean? Is “feel” only a physical concept? Do the thoughts you observe within your head dictate your state of being?

Emotions are fleeting. They don’t last long and if they do then it becomes more of a mood. Constant moods become attributes such as happy go lucky or grumpy, etc. So back to the origins, do thoughts dictate the state of being? Technically we are supposedly in control of our thoughts, depending on the individuals level of skill, so if that is true, a person should be able to program/define their state of being/emotion. However, I don’t think that our thoughts are static or always our own and this is why: Our minds are like antennae and sometimes we are able to pick up the frequencies of the people around us. That is why a “mood” can be contagious. Or how ideas can spread. It is also how the “crowd can change” and how one persons “emotion” can affect a group. Emotion… to me it sounds kind of like emit. Emit like a light. So when you are emoting an emotion, you are sending a certain frequency out to the environment around you. And if emotions are like assholes… we are all out here uniquely sending out different vibrations. I say all this because once we understand that we are capable of discerning which frequencies are our own… and if that is congruent with how we as individuals WANT our state of being to BE IN…. Then we must take more accountability for what we are transmitting and also allowing to receive. As science has shown us, the environment around us is very important to not only our well being but also in a sense a reflection of US. So when we suppress or don’t express ourselves authentically…that energy has to go somewhere. That emotion has to be observed then release. When we don’t release, the pressure builds up and then boom…. emotional explosion, body pain, illness, anxiety, depression, etc. So finding a creative and safe outlet for these thoughts/these “feelings” that don’t align with what you want to be your mood to be IN…..is CRITICAL.

The book I had mentioned above (The Artist Way by Julia Cameron) has been having me do these assignments called “Morning Pages” where you just write 3 pages of whatever you are observing in your thoughts first thing in the morning. Now every morning those thoughts change… just like opinions which are also like assholes in that everyone has them. So when you start getting rid of the excess and really start purging, it makes way for new thoughts, for clarity, for self awareness, etc. How can you determine your mood if you are not first becoming aware of YOUR emotions and not the ones projected upon you by the people around you and your environment? What are you holding onto that is being reflected that is no longer apart of how you are wanting to exist? By doing this daily exercise, no more is your volcano building up because you are constantly releasing.

I don’t know what everyone else is doing out here but for me, it is important that I am authentically emitting emotions that align with the person I am or am wanting to be in the state of being in. Self reflecting things like meditations and journaling can reveal soooooo much to yourself, about yourself. Since beginning my self love journey sooooo many years ago, I have been learning so much about who I am, what I love, what I want to be doing, what I “feel” my purpose is… and before–I would get bogged down because I couldn’t figure out what I wanted to do forever…. Now, I realize it’s not about forever. It’s about now. I can always do something else. I can always try something new. I can change my mind. I can change my emotions. I’m in control of that. I do not have to be in an environment that doesn’t reflect how I feel. Now I’m more picky about the things I put my energy into such as the activities I choose to partake in or the people I choose to hang out with… like an individual may tend to self-sabotage by making life harder in trying to be/do/appear in ways that aren’t authentic because they became a collage of what others projected upon them. I have definitely experienced that before but being aware now of how that can happen or what that looks/feels like/etc is like step one in reclaiming your time. I no longer care to be defined in my present now by the feelings I had had years ago in my past or by situations that happened to me before because in the present I define my now. I am the master of my thoughts. I define my mood and if the environment doesn’t match, I put in the work to do what is necessary to remove myself and then I move to where I feel lit up. I actively surround myself with things that match/complement my vibration by doing and hanging out with people that make me feel good. Does it happen all the time? No of course not but I define my emotions in my now and I do not have to allow my environment to have a say/influence how I choose to be in a state of being. Diving around in all of your emotions and figuring out which ones are authentic is a lifelong skill to acquire because emotions are like assholes and always they come and go…. and until you master your thoughts, you will be susceptible to the emotions/projections of the people/places/things around you.